The reality as I used to know it -- just A. and me, hours spent commuting back and forth to work, funding requests and proposal deadlines -- has definitely shifted. A. & I have waited a long time for N. to join us. I turn to N., and she has changed my life in ways I only imagined for so long.
Admittedly what I don't do often enough is . . . turn to Spirit, who has brought me thus far. What I must remember is . . . turn, turn, turn to the Divine especially as the season of autumn allows me to pause and cherish my time with N.