18.1.26

Recovery

We have a tradition in our family. We keep a gratitude jar, and through the year, each of us writes moments for which we are thankful. On New Year's Eve, we open each other's slips of paper, reflect and share them. This past New Year's, A. & N. pointed out that two thirds of mine were about my work. Last week, I had the opportunity to witness how amazingly church volunteers and community agencies' staff partner to prevent hypothermia. 

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recovery is exhausting
holiday pressures, family dynamics
and disappointment
everyday recovery
from the political antics of instability
and at the same time
recovery from the mood swings of a teen
while raising her
amidst global chaos,
our own fears and frustrations

do we not long to fill the space
with compassion
that will fight against wrongdoing? 

i devotedly follow the monks who walk for peace
and hope to get a glimpse
when they come through, to be in their presence

i make room under God's roof
for grace and humanity to meet me
in the eyes of strangers
who sleep on floor mats 
to avoid the bitter freeze
and in their eyes
i see social justice revolutionaries
some of whom are employed
yet unable to afford rent
some of whom are veterans
yet cast away by their government
some of whom speak 
more than one language and have families
yet unable to connect with loved ones

they are of every race and walk the streets
hungry. and cold. more than a bad break. 

maybe together
we can take a communal breath
and promise to take care of each other
maybe together
we can  take up space and draw closer
we can welcome grace, 
we can look deeply into each other's eyes
and we can honor each other's humanity



5.12.25

Hygge up

First snow of the season, and I am hygge'ing it up. Morning started with a stroll in the peace of the falling snow with the dog. No one else out in the neighborhood. I could breathe. Slowly. And now I have my homemade cuppa joe, dark roast and french pressed, splash of almond milk, dash of cayenne and cinnamon, with my candle lit and acoustic indie christmas tunes in the background. This past week, I have had a couple of opportunities to reflect on this season of cozying up and how hope shows up in our lives. 

Pastor Shannon at Lord of Life, where I work, invited me to share my reflections on hope. It was definitely an opportunity to stretch my courage as it has been a long time since I have been in front of a crowd, let alone an older white one which pushed me a bit beyond my comfort zone. 

Reflection on Hope 
If you are inspired by Psalm, tune in at 20:00. Otherwise, start at 22:00.

The next morning, it was my turn as a staff member to lead our weekly devotion (meditation). Would not consider myself super Christian, definitely spiritual and connected to the values of kapwa (internconnectedness), social justice and healing (wellness). So we hygge'd it up with the first Advent candle, and I am reminded that even the slightest glimmer gives us cause to hope amidst our personal struggles and global chaos. 

The beginning of the holdiay season is always wrought with bittersweetness. Longing for those moments with those who are now beyond the stars. Especially miss my Dad savoring the turkey's butt and innards after we have all had our Thanksgiving eats and all the roasting our family does of each other around the table as we refill our wine glasses. 

At your next holiday meetup, I wish you a moment of hygge -- a heartful breath, a thoughtful pause. May you soak up an intentional moment of cozy.

27.10.25

Parent's lament

When I'm inside my own head about what I might be doing wrong as a parent, I search for literature to support my stance or hunt for inspired wisdom. Parenting is only hard for the fully engaged, overly invested and deeply loving parents (so they say). And sometimes . . . 

parenting a teen
feels like
falling up a mountain 
-- upside down